The next morning my roommate Jenn and I gave Chicago a ride home. We climbed into Jenn’s beat up Ford Explorer and headed to the apartment that Chicago shared with his brother. It was a quiet ride. Partly because no one dared to say anything about the events of the night before and partly because we were still regaining consciousness. My mouth was a desert begging for water and my stomach felt hollow but wrenched at the thought of food. My mind had flatlined. It was numb, thoughtless. If there was any awkwardness lingering it wasn’t going to register on my radar.
We pulled up in front of Chicago’s apartment and exchanged casual goodbyes. “See you later – Talk to you soon.”
Back at our place we met up with another roommate, Erica, and began our daily routine. We chugged mass amounts of water with almost as much vigor as the Natty Ice we’d downed the night before. Then we slowly started testing our stomachs. Light snacks first – dry cereal, bagel chips, chex mix… Once any chance of upchuck had been ruled out we were ready to feast. Scrambled eggs, macaroni and cheese, microwavable chicken nuggets, loaded baked potatoes, leftover Chinese food. Ranch dressing smeared on top of it all.
We migrated to the living room balancing rounded plates and water bottles, sprawled across the ratty, drink-stained sofas, and slowly put together the puzzle of the night before. “Do you remember…”, “Did you see…”, “I did what?!” Like an episode of SportsCenter we doted on the highlights, laughed at the mishaps, and shook our heads at the bad plays. Once each of us had laid down all our pieces we had a nearly finished puzzle. This was one of our more successful recaps for sure.
And then the exhaustion set in. Continuing our normal routine we dumped our dishes in the sink and headed to our respective bedrooms for naps (the only real sleep we ever got), homework (in case we ever decided to go to class), and showers.
Alone in my bedroom I slept off the remaineder of my hangover and then laid in bed thinking about the puzzle we had pieced together. Its focus had been the Chicago/visitor mayhem. All of which I actually remembered… But for some reason it wasn’t a big deal. It was time to get up. Time to party… Again. And again and againandagain… I didn’t have time to care. I had a good thing going with Chicago, a connection. And I blew it. But none of that mattered. The connection, the explosion. None of it. I never once thought to call him, to text him, to apologize. I thought, instead, of the night ahead. The drinks, the people, the music, the dancing, the food, the fun. I never saw Chicago again.
I hopped in the shower and by 6 PM we were back in the common area getting dinner together and discussing plans for the night. They’d be the same plans we made every night – to drink, of course, but the places, the people, those were variable.
Erica was spending this particular night with her boyfriend and Alysia and Roy weren’t home. Jenn and I decided not to call any friends or check facebook to see what parties we’d been invited to. Instead we opted for a quiet night at our apartment complex’s pool. Drunk floating was one of our favorite pasttimes.
We ate dinner, watched some TV, and took our time getting ready. We made drinks that we sipped while slipping into skimpy bikinis and fixing our hair. Carrying towels, margaritas, and a small cooler of refills we clumsily made our way down to the pool which was nearly empty with only a handful of swimmers relaxing in the water. Our hard plastic flip flops smacked the bottoms of our feet as we worked our way over to the hot tub. The noise bounced off the surrounding apartments and echoed across the pool. A few guys playing basketball in the water watched us from the corner of their eyes, careful not to be obvious. We soaked and sipped for a good 10 minutes before they spoke to us.
I can’t remember what we talked about. I’m sure it was the usual. Where are you from, what are your names, we should chill. And so, after a half hour at the pool we were headed back to our apartment with two of the guys – brothers, B1 and B2.
They were in their early 20s, fit, over 6 feet tall, dark-skinned. We paired off instantly. Jenn with B1, myself with B2. We were alone in the apartment. It was quiet, low-key. We put on music and played some pong. A while later the door opened. Alysia and Roy. They walked through the kitchen toward their bedroom. Alysia walked with her head down, not bothering to acknowledge us. Roy walked ahead of her and looked our way. Our eyes met. He was grinning, his eyes were laughing.
Roy and Alysia had lived in the apartment for more than a year. The rest of us had been there for less than two months and still hadn’t quite figured them out. It was clear that we’d never be more than acquantances to them. They seemed to think that we were three obnoxiously loud (true), permanently drunk (also true) girls who just happened to live in their apartment. Fortunately, they didn’t have much interest in leaving their bedroom when they were home and they rarely had friends over so we never battled for territory.
Their bedroom bordered mine and I often laid in bed listening to their interactions. I knew from the clank of bottles and stench that occasionally seeped under their door that they drank daily and smoked weed weekly. They had loud sex. A lot of it. They fought often. Sometimes he would hit her. One night a week they’d venture out of their room and hang out with us, as they had the night of the Chicago/visitor debacle. We’d get plastered and do or say things we’d later wish we hadn’t. In the morning we’d pretend that it never happened and act as strangers again. We learned more about them during these weekly run-ins, but not much. They were students like us, as were most of the complex’s residents. Roy worked at an upscale seafood restaurant and was heavy into cocaine. Alysia was a stripper and her boobs were fake.
A few minutes after Roy and Alysia came home the door opened again. Fast footsteps. The visitor… Shit. I think I told him we could hang out tonight as we drunkenly groped each other in the breezeway last night. He emerged from the hallway and looked into the living room. He shook his head, looked away, and continued on to Roy and Alysia’s room.
Whatever. Dime a dozen.
And then my memory blurs. Jenn got sketched out by B1. B1 realized he wasn’t going to get anywhere with her and left. And then, eerily similar to the night before, I found myself sitting on my bed with B2 and the visitor. B2 was going to go look for B1 and asked if I wanted to go with him. The visitor pulled me aside. “He just wants to get in your pants.” And what is that you’re trying to do? I thought.
I left with B2. We walked across the complex to an apartment belonging to another one of his brothers. He and B1 were visiting from out of town. We reached the front door and peered inside. B1 was sitting on the couch playing a video game. B2 invited me in. I was tipsy, but no where near that tipsy. I told him I’d had a good time, but needed to go. He tried again, but I wasn’t giving in. We exchanged numbers, said goodbye. I started walking away when he spoke again. I turned back. “Hey,” he said, “that guy back at your place… He just wants to get in your pants.”
To be continued, yet again…